Traffic Light Confessions

This will come as little surprise to the family members who have had the truly cathartic experience of riding in the car with me while driving down US Highway 19… OK, really any road upon which my four wheels (or two if on my motorcycle) touch the ground… I am an impatient driver!  There… I’ve said it, out loud, in print, on the Internet, for the entire world to read (or at least the 7 people interested in reading this blog).  And, in the interest of being completely transparent, if you are not a family member and have had the pleasure of riding with me, my gracious driving skills were all just a façade.

This is me NOT driving under grace: “Everyone should drive with courtesy!”  “Everyone should pay attention to those around them!” “Everyone should drive AT LEAST the speed limit!”  “Everyone should know where they are going!”  I could go on, and on, and on… you get the idea, and some of you are saying “YES! You go brother, I am right there with you!”  That is just pride and selfishness talking.

Over the past several days, I’ve been really trying to live by my last blog, Trusting Him Completely. If I truly trust God with all that I am and live life according to Jeremiah 29:11 (I know the plan I have for you…), then all of me means ALL OF ME, even while on US Highway 19.  I used to look at red lights as a nuisance, just another thing holding me back from getting to where I need to go.  But trying to live out Proverbs 3:5 (Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding) means I have to trust Him even with red lights.

Here’s another confession, I used to think, “What does God care about traffic lights?”  But then I have to compare that to Matthew 10:29-30:

29 Are not two sparrows sold for a copper coin? And not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father’s will. 30       But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

If He knows every hair on my head (avg head has 140,000 hairs), then he knows every traffic light I pass, every day of my life.  He doesn’t know or care about that because I am any different than anyone else traveling down the road, He knows that because that is Who He is.  And if He is that into the details (and He is), then I need to thank Him for every red-light that comes my way.

I have more on this subject that relates to driving under grace, but that will have to wait for the next blog entry.  However, I will leave you with this quote from Oswald Chambers (My utmost for His Highest, November 16):

We have a tendency to look for wonder in our experience, and we mistake heroic actions for real heroes.  It’s one thing to go through a crisis grandly, yet quite another to go through every day glorifying God when there is no witness, no limelight, and no one paying even the remotest attention to us.

Oddly enough that day’s devotion is titled “STILL HUMAN!”  If you are still wondering about God’s attention to details, look at what He has been speaking to me the last couple days, then look how he planned my daily devotion to line up perfectly.  I love Him!

El Shaddai, You are matchless, indescribable, all powerful, all knowing!  Holy!  As I go through this day, help me live every moment, when there are those looking on, and when no one is paying the least bit of attention to me, bringing glory to Your name.  Amen.

About Todd Bowman

I am a child of God, a husband to Mindy, a father of seven beautiful children of God, a student of the grace of God in Christ, a worshiper, a teacher, a musician and singer, a writer, a nerd, a geek, and a general advocate of mercy and service.
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6 Responses to Traffic Light Confessions

  1. Hannah says:

    I remember those early morning drives to high school when I would pray for green lights. 😉 sometimes when I’m late I still pray for green lights, but I’ve also learned to love car rides and red lights because that’s when I belt out some worship 🙂

  2. Todd Bowman says:

    Yeah, I keep thinking of that Casting Crowns song, “I will praise You in the storm” and it keeps coming out “I will praise You in the traffic…” I know… Corny! 🙂

  3. Gramma says:

    Count me as two of seven who follow your blog – and your daughter’s – may four altogether.

  4. Why are you Gramma on your SONS blog? 😉

    • Margie says:

      HI Todd, This one really spoke to me, because I guess I am kind of like you in the car, but at other times I am like Hannah and if your mom is counting I am 5.
      Love ya,

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